Who did you meet in yourself this year? A question I try to answer at the end of the year, every year. This years question, though the same as last years has so much more weight to it (no pun intended). 2014 was a year of unmarked territory and conquering, I faced challenges with my health, my wealth, my stability but more than anything I faced myself. I faced my heart and mind, the idea of who I believed I was, what my foundation was. I mean I truly went up the mountain this year. The thought of who I thought I was had become a hurdle in 2104; a hurdle that I jumped and cleared.
“Be the change you wish to see in the world” had been my mantra for years, however I wasn’t changing, I had become stifled and useless even, I didn’t know who I was or what I wanted and if that weren’t enough I ended up in the hospital with heart failure, then had to release my home (a better way of saying “I lost my shit”), and definitely lost my sense of self. All of these things attributed to a darkening heart and a wayward faith. But then the light came; it didn’t come in the form of money, a home or even my health. The light came in my perspective. The love came in my perspective, the health, the help, the triumph all came with my choice of see things differently and accepting that my true Love Source did in fact love m and had not failed me. My love source wanted me, trusted me and desired the Best for my life.
You see, most times when things become hectic, hard and insane we immediately give glory to the forces that charge against our “faith account”, what this means is that instead of recognizing early on that though these challenges, hurdles, walls and valleys don’t feel good, they are a part of love, pruning and discipline from our governing Love Source. The idea that God, the universe, the Almighty works even with the adversities to create diamonds. Pressure creates stones. But what kind of stone will you be is the question I’ve learned to ask myself when the winds of scrutiny and hardship are upon me.
Nope, I don’t have any of this down-packed myself just yet, there’s no perfection but what I have learned and believe is that All things work together for your good if you choose to believe that good is for you. Believing is the fuel hat powers our dreams. Believing empowers our goals and our fears. SO!!! What do you choose to believe? Have you salted the earth with the hope of the visions you see in your dreams? Are you willing to allow love and light to pull you forward as you push toward your love light?
This year, 2014 brought me all kinds of lemons; hell at one point I felt as if I was literally living in a garden of lemons my shit was so lemony, lol. I mean really! It was hard to see for a bit of time, but it all became clear once I decided to Trust my God, my Love Source. The very heart of my being connected in with the winner in me and I took hold of all that is promised to me. I stopped looking at how things were going and decided to make things happen the way I believed they should be going.
Who do you know that starts the years with sold out shows, television interviews, fans and a lot of love and out of nowhere ends up homeless, broke, and with serious health challenges but manages to turn all that shit around in a matter of months. Yes, that’s me baby. I took hold of my love source and dug into being me, Abraham McDonald, the best thing for me. That’s right, the best thing for me was deciding to be me and without apology. No fear, no doubt, no guilt and no lies, only the truth that I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wow what a concept, right? Your love source wants you to be full of life and rich with love & wisdom so that you can live a higher, bigger and fuller life.
Look, losing weight is definitely an amazing feat, something that I’d wanted to do for a long time, but it wasn’t until I got in the head space of loving me right where I was that I could see myself completing the journey of changing my health, my weight etc. I had to love what was in the mirror before trying to change it, hell I couldn’t even fathom losing weight because I couldn’t see the vision. I couldn’t see the end goal. And that’s exactly why most people give up on the Dherbs.com Full Body Cleanse. They can’t see it as truth. But that’s only because they’re trying to lose weight to like them more when that simply isn’t possible.
Accept yourself right where you are. Stand in the mirror naked and love, love, love, what the hell you see right now. You have to if you want to love whose to come. See, the shell is insignificant if you don’t like yourself inside. Skinny ain’t not neva made nobody cute. So who wants to be ugly on the inside and beautiful on the outside? I’ll tell you who, the person who’s ok with torturing themselves, believing that the outward is enough to complete themselves. You cannot revel in the relationship of your true Love Source when you don’t love yourself. The truth is that you’ll never be able to hear the sweet whispers of your making and make up without the self-love connection.
With that, when you raise a glass or pour up for New Years Eve tonight, toast to loving who God made in the right now. Toast to living better tomorrow and hearing the sweet whisper of Gods love enveloping you and sending you into the better days of your living. And isn’t that what all of this is about. Living better. Free in mind, spirit, love and body.
Kiss the mirror and tell yourself Thank You just for being you, then smile and hug yourself… you are enough, right now, you are perfection, you are light. Everything you add to yourself from this point forward is simply about connecting to life and living it to the fullest.
I hope and pray your NYE will be an amazing one and when you awake January 1st, 2015
Philippians 3:14King James Version (KJV)
I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.