I already stated that I\u2019d eaten New York and a portion of Los Angeles over the coarse of the month what I hadn\u2019t talked about however is the pressure of every day life and the toll it can have on your physical presence in the gym and even what you\u2019re choosing to eat, put in your body.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019m not gonna make this long, but I wanted to share with you what my trials and experiences have been over the past few weeks and how its effected my eating and weight. The hardest thing was recognizing that I was beginning to slip into a space that is unrecognizable by most of the people around me. This is why we, you and me have to constantly check in with ourselves. No one knows you like You. I had taken on a bit of guilt from my splurge, just a hint, but that\u2019s all the darkness of Emotional Eating needs to roll out a spread that will keep you so occupied you wont even know you ate the kitchen sink until its gone. Just a hint and depression will push that refrigerator gate wide open.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Its been for some time now that whenever my mom is not well my heart seems to sink, I\u2019m sure that\u2019s natural but it doesn\u2019t just sink. My heart sinks first and then comes the push to the kitchen; snacks, potato chips, candy, sodas. Things that I removed from my home mysteriously began to return \u2013 My aunt going through her 4th<\/sup> surgery due to breast cancer got to me also. My moms and aunt are my girls man. That crap was hurting, so much so that I began neglecting the gym.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Its funny how the thing you\u2019re running from ends up being exactly what you need to pull you right back together. I needed the gym, I needed the high energy and my body needed to push a little harder. I can\u2019t speak for everyone out there, but tonight I\u2019m grateful for my support team, my mom who even though I\u2019m visiting her in the hospital tells me \u201cwell you cant just sit here, go to the gym\u201d and my aunt who randomly texts me just to say \u201cyou looked good today when I saw you, you going to the gym tonight? That keeps me motivated and Finally \u201cI\u201d keep me motivated.<\/p>\n\n\n\n